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Years ago, when i was born, i would be born into an islamic family, ranging from my grandmother being from kazakhstan, migrating into yemen and marrying my grandfather in saudi arabia, soon going into saudi arabia, my grandfather had a history of Heart attacks, and soon would die before i was born, he used to be in the military, now receiving money from the military due to my grandfather's death (Service money), and after my father was born, so was my 3 uncles, my father had a history of anger, maybe a little too much, and he was a smoker at a young age (don't know when he started it) at his time, cigarettes were cheap as hell, and anyone could buy (if you looked 18, still do today), he has a history of HBP and alopecia totalis, going forward, my mother is a social media addict, going as far as to ignore me, and even ignore my essential needs (Food and shit) and often brushing off my need for attention or affection (Now affecting my still-strong depression) and would try to link up why she would ignore me in hopes of receiving attention, Self esteem (or self respect) would be really low, and i would often try to make others laugh or love me in hopes of receiving the affection i didn't get in my childhood, now the school part, the elementary school is what caused me to have breakdowns, i would often cry in class despite not wanting to, and would bottle up my emotions until 16 of age, teachers beating my classmates with sticks would be there, and i would receive it often (usually on my hand), and going into my father's history with me, it wasn't positive, Verbal abuse is common from him to me and still does today, going into middle school, i would have schizophrenia at the age of 14, believing that god would bless me with powers and love, i thought i'd go into another world, where love is common, it never happened.
Because of this history, i would develop OSDD or D.I.D (Unknown, my doctor hasn't told me because i need to finish the meds i have, in order to properly diagnose it) and it would be that of reason, that i actually starting receiving love by the form of my alters, being that of mostly fictives, child alters, comfort alters, ETC.
if anyone wants me to answer questions, ask them​
Because of this history, i would develop OSDD or D.I.D (Unknown, my doctor hasn't told me because i need to finish the meds i have, in order to properly diagnose it) and it would be that of reason, that i actually starting receiving love by the form of my alters, being that of mostly fictives, child alters, comfort alters, ETC.
if anyone wants me to answer questions, ask them​
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