Why can't I have faith?

[Love Metal_666]

I've never posted in this forum before, but I've been in other totse forums for awhile.

Anyway, my question is the topic title: why can't I have faith? For about... a year and a half, I've been trying to believe in God and all of that religious shit and it just isn't working. I've gone to church ever since I was a kid, and pretty regularly at that (at least twice a month on Sundays). I want to be religious very badly, to have a God to talk to when I need him, and something to fall back on when it seems the world has abandoned me. But I just can't. All that happens is I fall into a depressed state because I end up feeling like there is no God, and he's not helping me out. I try my hardest in school, and I fail classes, leading to fights with parents and overall bad situations. I try to be a good person, I try to do shit right, but everything keeps getting more and more fucked. My grades keep declining, my family gets poorer by the day, and there's really not shit I can do about it. I realize this has been sort of a bitch and moan post, but I've looked to a lot of sources for guidance and I haven't used an online community like this, full of (seemingly :P) educated people. If anyone has anything to say that could help me out, that would be awesome. And to anyone who wants to flame, fuck you.