My mother is a evangelist christian for the past 6 years. Shes also a bit on the looney side, she gets extremely mad for random things; like me looking at something ''of the devil'' while im watching like a pg-13 horror movie. and rants about the devil for 30 mintutes and if i dont have god in my life i will be pretty much fucked in life. I baptized myself when i was about 14-15 im 17. I liked it at first. Until i realized i was being uses as a workhorse. They would tell me to do random task like clean and work for free. Also would invite me to stuff and the event would start extremely late, or i go and the event gets canceled without anyone notifyign me. Once they called me at work to tell me an event wasnt going to be canceled. I take a bus from my job to the train to go to church. when i get there, there event is canceled because the leader failed to show up. The final straw was when a leader actually raised his voice at me, then i finally snapped and told him off. I havent been to church in that manner ever since. that has been nearly over a year ago. I dont want to go to my mothers church because everyone is basically a hypocrite to me and judge me because i act like myself. Also the pastor wants me to work there. thats all he ever says to me when i see him. And my mom is all fire and brimestone about everything. Last sunday i didnt go to church with her because i was tired from work and wanted to stay at home. I stayed at home and when she comes back she looks at me with this hate in her eyes, seriously like emotionless hateful eyes and looks at me for like 30 seconds and says something among the lines in spanish translated to english something like '' Im very mad at you''. Also i find out whenever im in church more problems arise then when im not in it. Its not that i dont beieve in god i just dont want to associate with church memebers and i cant stand listening for 3-4 hours loud gospel music without sitting down.
What do you guys suggest? Im 17 so i cant really do much as in tell her to fuck off.
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