Paranoid

by Jerry Gordon

Hello, my name is Jerry Gordon and for two and half years I have been hacked, eavesdropped, preaked, poked and prodded. I believe that a hell of alot of people watch what I type every time I go online. It started out with me finding out that a bunch of family members were hacking my very first computer and internet dial-up connection. Well I figured it was them and so I gave them something to look at. I typed cuss words at them till my fingers were blue. In the first year I done well to keep them out. But as time passed it seemed more and more hackers wanted to take a shot and see if they could hack me. Well, they started using trojan horse sub seven and God knows what else. Eventually I had to move on to the web tv cause my computer was being filled with cracker script viruses.

At this same time I was being investigated and falsely accused of stalking a girl I went to school with. To prove my innocence I spilled my guts. I mean I said everything that popped into my head, hoping that they would see me as a good person. I talked about religion, and what I thought about politics, and whch cars I liked. I done this for 2 years. And soon I could see some slight feed back from tv shows like tech tv, The 700 club, c-span. I wondered how are so many people eavesdropping on me? I didn't know anything about computers. I thought it was some of my family members still hacking me.

To this day I still don't understand how and why so many people want to watch what I type. Perhaps it was gemometric pregression. Two people told two people and so on. I wished for someone just to tell me what is going on. I have few friends. I don't know anyone that hackes computers except some family members that I chewed out on my internet browsers...they weren't about to help me, or perhaps they didn't know how. What I don't understand is how so many people could be watching me and I can't find one web site about it. Perhaps it's a popular hacker underground thing. What made me mad and paranoid was the fact that I had put out a bunch of job applications and didn't get one call from none of them. I didn't mind the computer hacking , but it was when they were messing with my phone that made me angry. I wanted to know the full extent of what a hacker could do. I mean if a hacker wanted to they could do a lot of dammage to a person. They could ruin your credit, get you introuble who knowes where on the internet, stop phone calls from coming through, mess with your power so that your houselights go off.

I was living with my parents. And my dad had recently perchased my grandparents house and remodeled it ad were living in it. Well I had 4 uncles and one aunt. I got the feeling that they weren't too happy that my dad got the land and didn't get anything. So I blamed a few of them for my problems. So that's my story and if you know anyone that can help me call 1-XXX-XXX-XXXX.