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								|   | Yesterday's Warrior From the silly author of StSubject: New (sorta) story: "Yesterday's Warrior"
 From the silly author of "Still Looking for Things" and "Pardon Me..." comes
 a bold, somewhat new, and (yes) serious ST:TNG story.  This previously
 appeared a few months ago in issue #8 of the fanzine, _Ship's Log:
 Supplemental_, published by Timothy Perdue ([email protected], but
 he won't be back till fall).  It has been slightly edited since then.
 
 Any comments are appreciated, but this account will expire within a few
 weeks.
 
 Felix Ling
 ------------
 
 Yesterday's Warrior
 
 Military log, combat date 43108.6.  After sustaining
 significant damage in a confrontation with Klingon forces at the
 Koralis system, we have been informed that none of the nearby
 Starbases are able to accommodate us at this time.  We have
 therefore been ordered to effect repairs on our own as best we
 can.  In the meantime, we are to proceed to the Gault system,
 where a farming colony had been recently hit by Klingon forces,
 and we are to assist in the relief efforts as much as we can.
 
 Captain Jean-Luc Picard briskly strode onto the bridge.
 "Report."
 "We should be at the Gault system in six hours.  Commander
 LaForge reports that he should have main power back up to seventy
 percent by that time," reported Riker.
 Picard nodded and took the captain's chair.  He glanced up at
 his first officer.  When it was clear that Riker was not planning
 to leave, he asked, "How long has it been since you've had any
 rest, Number One?"
 "About two days, sir."
 "Well then, why don't we try to rectify that situation."
 "Sir?"
 "Go get some sleep, Number One."
 "Captain, I think I should..."
 "Will, I think it is clear that we are never going to be in a
 position of complete safety, and you are not going to get a
 better opportunity to get some rest.  I think you should avail
 yourself of it, Number One."  Riker bristled.  "That is an order,
 Commander."
 "Yes, sir," Riker snapped.  Picard gazed after his first
 officer.  It had been somewhat saddening to have seen such a
 promising young officer become hardened by the years of war.  He
 had started off as almost the ideal first officer: ambitious,
 eager, and very capable.  Now, he seemed to have lost the first
 two qualities and was in danger of losing the third.  Nowadays he
 often tried to force situations and was even beginning to chafe
 under Picard's command.  It wasn't bad.  Nothing that would come
 close to resembling insubordination.  Riker would obey orders,
 but he had a disturbing way of making sure everybody knew he
 wasn't happy about it.
 It was too bad they didn't get along better.  Picard actually
 liked the man, and it was a shame they had to meet under such
 harsh circumstances.  Clearly, Riker was not in his element in
 this war.  Neither was Picard, for that matter, nor anyone
 else... No, there was Tasha Yar.
 Now Lieutenant Tasha Yar was one person who definitely seemed
 to be in her element, Picard mused.  Such anger and fierceness,
 but carefully channeled and focused.  Unlike Riker, she seemed to
 work better when angry, and she could always be depended upon to
 keep a level head in the heat of battle.  In fact, she almost
 seemed to live for battle.  It would be interesting to see how
 she would have fit in if there hadn't been a war, he mused.
 
 Will Riker stalked down the corridors to his quarters.  He
 knew that Picard was probably right.  He needed the rest.  He
 just hated having the Enterprise in such a helpless condition and
 not being able to do anything about it.
 And Picard *was* right.  There really is no better time than
 this to get in some sleep.  He knew that, and he was annoyed at
 Picard for having to tell him and annoyed at himself for making
 it necessary for Picard to have to tell him.
 He stepped into his room and stopped, the doors sliding shut
 behind him.  God, he was so tense.  It was times like these he
 wished Deanna were around.  Deanna.  Why did he keep thinking of
 her?  He doubted she gave him much thought, let alone pleasant
 ones, considering how abruptly he'd left her.  At the time it
 seemed the smart thing to do.  The only thing he could do.  But
 now...  Well, it was over and done long ago.  No use dwelling on
 it.  Who knows where she's ended up.  There's certainly plenty of
 people who could use some real counselling.  Like himself.
 A few years ago he was sure of where he was going, what he
 wanted to do.  Being a starship captain seemed to be the perfect
 role for him -- it was just a matter of time before he got there.
 Now, he wasn't so sure if he'd ever get there, and worse, he
 wasn't sure he wanted to.  He probably would still be better off
 as a captain, but now it seemed that he was going nowhere, fast.
 He just didn't seem to have that drive he used to have, and it
 wasn't likely that Picard was giving Starfleet glowing
 recommendations of him.
 
 "Standard Orbit, Ensign.  Open a channel, Lieutenant Yar"
 A rather grizzled face appeared on the main viewscreen.  "This
 is Chancellor Nurchov of Gault."
 "I am Captain Jean-Luc Picard of the USS Enterprise.  We are
 here to assist you in any way we can."
 "Thank God you're here.  Those Klingons hit us pretty bad.
 Most of our crops were wiped out, and it seems that a good deal
 of our soil has been sterilized.  Imagine that.  A farming colony
 in need of food.  A good many homes were also wiped out, so any
 form of shelter you can provide would be appreciated."
 "We will do what we can."
 "One more thing.  With the shortage of food, and all, there
 have been a few outbreaks of violence.  It's not been too bad,
 but I think you'd be best off bringing down some security forces
 to make sure riots don't break out over the food you're
 bringing."
 "A sensible precaution.  We'll have a security team beamed
 down shortly and have them start distributing supplies as soon as
 possible."
 "Many thanks, Captain."
 
 Lieutenant Tasha Yar surveyed the area.  Everything seemed to
 be going smoothly.  There had been a few minor outbreaks, but
 nothing that her team couldn't handle within a few moments.  She
 hated seeing people reduced to this condition.  She knew what
 that life was like and had been lucky to escape it herself.  It
 was the least she could do to help those who weren't as lucky.
 Damn those Klingons!  Daring to hit a defenseless colony like
 this.  Tasha clenched her fists tightly.
 Suddenly, she noticed loud shouting voices nearby, and she ran
 towards the commotion.  Apparently, a group of colonists were
 yelling at an old couple.  As she got there, it quickly
 degenerated into a shoving match.
 "Break it up!  Break it up, now!!" she yelled, pulling the men
 apart.
 As she helped one man to his feet, the man turned towards the
 men he'd been fighting and yelled, "I'll get you, you murderers!
 Murderers!"
 "Sergey, please!" said the woman, rushing to his side to
 restrain him.
 "Are you okay?" asked Tasha Yar.
 "I'm fine," the man replied.
 "How did this start?"
 "Those bastards killed our son!"
 Tasha paused.  "I'm sorry to hear that.  I'm sorry.  If I can
 do anything to help..."
 "No.  You've done enough already, thank you."
 "Why did they kill your son?"
 "Why do you think?  Hate, fear, anger.  Prejudice.  They never
 for once thought of him as a person!"
 Puzzled, Tasha asked, "When did this happen?  Do you have
 evidence?  Why haven't they been tried for their crimes?"
 The man, Sergey, shook his head.  "No, they will never be
 tried.  Nobody here considers it to be a crime!  They all
 probably thought it was a heroic act!" he spat.  "Now would you
 just please leave us alone?"
 "Sergey," the woman pleaded.  "She's just trying to help us."
 But Sergey continued to glare at Tasha.  "She's in
 *Starfleet*!" he hissed.  "Starfleet got us into this war with
 the Klingons, and because of that, our son was murdered just for
 being a Klingon!"  He then got up and stalked away.
 "I am so sorry.  He took Worf's death very hard.  Please don't
 take it personally.  Helena Rozhenko," she said, offering her
 hand.  Tasha smiled weakly as she grasped it reassuringly, and
 Helena then turned to hurry after her husband.
 A Klingon!  Their son was a Klingon!
 
 Guinan slowly walked around Ten Forward, greeting people here
 and there with a small wave.  Tensions seemed to be eased a bit,
 but everyone was still a bit on edge.  It was natural.  After
 all, this was war.  And this ship could really use a counselor,
 she mused.  But for now, it would have to settle for her.
 And yet, something had been bothering her for a while, too.
 It wasn't just that she disliked war.  Indeed, there wasn't much
 there for anyone to like.  But it just wasn't that.  Something
 seemed funny.  She couldn't put her finger on it, but she seemed
 to gradually get closer and closer to it as time went on.  No
 hurry.  When it came to her, she would know.  For now she could
 wait.
 She noticed Tasha Yar, sitting alone and looking somewhat
 troubled.  She made her way over to her.
 "Not enough action in this mission for you?"
 "Oh hello, Guinan.  No, it's just... I've been thinking."
 Guinan sat down and patiently remained silent.
 "I ran into a couple down there.  They had a Klingon son who
 was killed, and the father blames Starfleet for his death.  For
 starting this whole war."
 "Are you saying that it bothers you that this man blames
 Starfleet?"
 "Yes."  Tasha paused.  "No."
 Guinan studied Tasha's face.  "You can't fathom why anybody
 would adopt a Klingon."
 "That's not true!  I'm not a racist!"  Guinan merely kept
 looking at her with that steady gaze of hers.  "But I'm not!"
 Tasha pleaded.  "Am I?"
 "What do you think?"
 "I shouldn't be.  There's no reason for it.  They're
 individuals, just like us, and it just happens that our
 respective governments can't get along."
 "Do you really believe that?"
 "I want to.  I really want to.  But this is war!  I can't
 afford to think that way.  I can't hesitate to fire our weapons
 because I'm afraid of killing Klingons!"
 "Is that what you think would happen?  Are you really afraid
 of what you might become if you dared to stop hating the other
 side?"
 "Yes," Tasha whispered.
 "Well, you really ought to be afraid of what you might become
 if you *don't* stop hating the other side."
 
 "Geordi!  How are those repairs coming?"
 "What's the matter, Commander.  Not working fast enough for
 you?"
 "Depends.  You have those shields up yet?"
 "Up to fifty percent, now.  Should have them back up to eighty
 within an hour."
 "That's not good enough."
 "Well, it's gonna have to be good enough.  We've got everybody
 working as hard as they can, now."
 "Well, get them to work harder!"
 "With all due respect, Commander, what is the big rush?"
 "The Enterprise is a sitting duck out here, and you think I'm
 rushing you?!?"
 "Quite frankly -- yes!  Commander, you're *pushing* again.
 You're pushing me, yourself.  You're pushing everybody!  And it
 isn't particularly helpful."
 Riker stared at LaForge for a moment, then let out a long
 breath and leaned against the diagnostics table.  "I'm sorry,
 Geordi.  I don't know what's gotten into me these days."
 "These days?  You've been at my throat for months!"
 "Come on.  I wasn't really that bad, was I?" Riker said with
 a weak smile.  "Okay, I guess I was.  I don't know what's
 happened to me.  I guess it's just that this war's so damn
 frustrating.  We never seem to make any headway."
 Geordi stared at Riker for a moment.  "Yeah, I know what you
 mean.  I keep working as fast as I can, but I just don't have the
 time or equipment to fully repair everything.  All I can do is
 just patch everything up and hope it'll hold together.  I mean, I
 sometimes don't see the point of bothering to fix everything when
 it's only going to get banged up again.  But I keep doing it
 cause I just can't help it."
 "Can't bear to see broken equipment lying around?" Riker asked
 with a grin.
 "And crying out for my attention.  Speaking of which, I think
 I'd better get back to work."
 "Geordi."
 "Yes, Commander?"
 Riker walked slowly forward, asking hesitantly, "Have I really
 been pushing everyone around too much?"
 Geordi thought for a moment  "You haven't been *too* bad.  You
 just need to lighten up a little bit more and let everybody do
 their jobs.  And that includes Captain Picard."
 "What?"
 "The man knows how to command a starship.  He doesn't need you
 to constantly second guess his every decision.  Just let him do
 his job.  I know he trusts you to do yours."
 
 "Coming!" Sergey Rozhenko yelled as he hurried to the door and
 opened it.  "You!"
 "Please," said Tasha Yar.  "I just want to talk."
 "I have nothing to say to you."
 "Please, Sergey.  Let her talk," urged Helena, behind him.
 Sergey looked back at her for a moment, then gestured for Tasha
 to come in.
 "Now what did you want to talk about, Starfleet Officer?"
 Sergey demanded when they were all seated.
 "My name is Tasha Yar."
 "Okay, Tasha Yar.  What do you want to talk about?"
 "I was hoping you could tell me about... your son."
 "Why do you want to know about my son!" he yelled, leaping to
 his feet.
 "I just..."
 "You just what?  You just want to hear about how strange and
 horrible he was and get satisfaction from learning how badly he
 was treated?  Or do you just want to find out what kind of sick
 people would take in and take care of a Klingon?"
 "No!  I just want to learn what he was like."
 "Why?!?"
 Tasha paused and took in a deep breath.  "Almost all of my
 life, I've been taught to hate the Klingons.  Throughout my
 training in Starfleet Academy, I kept hearing stories about the
 atrocities they committed.  And although the instructors kept
 trying to encourage us that all life had value, even Klingon
 life, I could see the hate glimmering in the backs of their eyes
 and I knew that they hated the Klingons just like I did.  And
 when I finally began service in the war, I finally got my chance
 to fight.  And with it, I began experiencing their acts of
 destruction firsthand.  Every ship they destroyed, every planet
 they bombarded...  I lost a lot of friends in this war.
 "Yes, I hated the Klingons, and I never gave it a second
 thought.  There's nothing wrong with hate, I thought.  We're at
 war!  We're supposed to hate our enemies.  All the more better to
 make us better warriors so that we might defeat them.  Now, I
 find myself questioning all that I've believed in.  I've hated
 Klingons all my life and never found any reason not to -- until
 now.  I could tell that you loved your son very much, and I
 hadn't thought it possible for a Klingon to be loved.  Please.
 Just tell me about him."
 Sergey was silent for a moment.  "My son.  What can I tell
 you."  He sat down.  "We had just hit the Khitomer outpost and
 were going through the wreckage, looking for survivors.  I came
 across a Klingon infant.  A mere baby!  His mother, father -- his
 whole family was dead.  We killed them.  We killed everybody!"
 He shook his head.  "Starfleet called it an accident.  Tried to
 blame the Romulans for misinformation.  But that didn't change
 the fact that it was us that killed them.  It didn't change a
 *thing*!"
 "You used to be in Starfleet?" asked Tasha, surprised.
 Sergey grimaced.  "I'm not proud of it.  I quit Starfleet that
 day.  And I took little Worf with me to raise as my son."
 "That was the happiest day of my life," said Helena, smiling
 at the memory.  "Not only did I have my Sergey back, but we
 finally had the little boy we've always wanted."  Her smile
 slowly faded.  "He didn't exactly have the most pleasant
 childhood.  I can only imagine what he went through when he
 finally learned that we were at war with his people.  And the way
 he was treated by everyone else!"  Helena was on the verge of
 tears, but Sergey reached over and squeezed her hand reassuringly.
 He turned to Tasha.  "Come," he said.  "Let me show you some
 pictures."
 
 "Captain, the planet is hailing us."
 "Onscreen, Ensign."
 Chancellor Nurchov's face appeared on the viewscreen.
 "Captain Picard.  I must thank you for all the help you've given
 us so far."
 Picard strode forward, Riker not far behind.  "It was the
 least we could do to a colony that has provided so much
 nourishment to so many other worlds."
 "Unfortunately, we may not be able to do so in the future.
 Much of our farming machinery was destroyed or badly damaged.  We
 have little hope to repair any of it.  Unless, of course, you
 would be able to lend the support of some of your engineers,
 perhaps?"
 Picard frowned.  "We would like to help, but unfortunately,
 all of our engineers are quite occupied in the repairs of the
 Enterprise.  I will see if we can maybe spare a few, but I doubt
 we'll be able to help you in this area."
 Nurchov nodded slowly, clearly quite disappointed.  "I
 understand.  I appreciate all you've already done so far.  Thank
 you again.  Gault out."
 Riker turned to Picard.  "You're not going to help them?"
 "We *are* helping them, Number One."
 "What we're doing is just temporarily relieving their
 suffering.  Without their machinery, they won't be able to farm
 and can't sustain themselves for very long."
 "I am aware of that, Number One."
 "Then why can't we help them repair the machinery?"
 "We need to have the Enterprise battle-ready as soon as
 possible so we can join the Federation forces at Selenius 5, and
 that is our top priority.  If, by chance, repairs are finished
 ahead of schedule, we will then try to help repair their
 machinery.  But not one moment before.  Understood?"
 "Yes, Captain," Riker quietly replied.
 Picard looked somewhat questioningly at Riker, expecting a
 little more resistance, or at least a more bitter tone.
 Riker noticed him.  "What?"
 "Oh, er... Nothing, Number One.  I'll be in my ready room if
 you need me," Picard replied as he left the bridge.
 He sat at his desk and began reviewing several reports from
 Starfleet when his door chime sounded.
 "Come."
 "Excuse me, Captain.  Do you have a moment?" asked Tasha Yar.
 "Of course."
 "Captain, before today, I'd thought war was clear cut.  We
 hate them, they hate us, and we just fight to see who stays
 alive."
 Picard gave a small smile.  "Nothing is ever that simple,
 Tasha."
 "No. I guess not.  Anyway, I met a couple on the surface who
 had -- adopted a Klingon son.  He was killed by the other
 colonists soon after the Klingon attack upon the planet."
 "I see."
 "For a moment, I thought that he got what he deserved.  I
 mean, I've been killing Klingons throughout my career, so what
 did one more dead Klingon matter?  But I saw how it had affected
 his parents.  They really loved him."  Tasha paused, unsure as to
 how to continue.
 "And now, you are wondering how you can continue fighting in
 this war.  Continue killing Klingons when you can no longer see
 them merely as an enemy to be destroyed."
 "Yes."
 "I see.  You could consider, perhaps, that I am the one giving
 you the order to fire weapons.  Therefore, you aren't really
 doing the killing, I am.  You're just following orders."
 "That's not really true, Captain."
 "Well, the other thing I can suggest is to remember that you
 are simply trying to keep a certain group of Klingons from
 destroying this ship, killing yourself and hundreds of other
 people.  There is little choice.  Them or us."
 Tasha thought about this for a moment.  "It'll still be
 difficult."
 "It never is an easy thing to kill, for most people," said
 Picard, standing up and walking around the table.  "Before. you
 probably didn't fully realize you were actually killing, since
 you never really considered Klingons to be alive.  But you seem
 to realize that now, and I suppose it's for the best.  I've
 always found it somewhat disturbing to come across people who
 have absolutely no qualms about killing others."
 "Are you telling me that you found me disturbing, Captain
 Picard?" Tasha asked with a slight smile.
 "To a small degree, perhaps.  But I was rather hoping that you
 were simply not fully aware of the full consequences of your
 actions, which appears to have been the case."
 "I'm glad I haven't disappointed you."
 "You never have.  But this is war, and our job is to protect
 the Federation.  If you truly cannot continue to carry out your
 duties..."
 "I'm sure I will be able to, Captain."
 Picard smiled as Tasha turned and left.  A rather interesting
 and unexpected development, but he was concerned as to how it
 would affect her performance as Security Chief.  Would she
 hesitate in crucial situations?  Nonsense.  She was a
 professional.  She'd do her job.  If she couldn't, she'd have the
 sense to resign or request a different assignment.  He'd hate to
 lose her, but people come and go in Starfleet.  Especially in
 wartime.
 Picard returned to the reports from Starfleet, but quickly
 tossed them aside.  There was nothing there he hadn't already
 suspected, but he still wasn't quite ready to accept it yet.
 Troubled, he stood and stared out his ready room window, gazing
 at the billions of worlds which teetered on the brink of
 disaster.
 
 Felix Ling
 May 15, 1993
 
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